Tuesday, November 28, 2006
could u look me in the eyes, and tell me that ure happy now.
jus recovered from fever. stomach's still bloated. uncomfy feeling. nv gd. hoping i will be. nites
I failed. 2:01 AM
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Monday, November 13, 2006
yet another dream of mine come true. can anyone tell me if u have the same experience as me? i keep having dreams that happen at a later part of my life. and one by one, its coming true. i dreamt that i died when i was in a shopping centre shopping with my wife and a kid. well if that's true, at least i know i'll die after some time.
pls put an end to my loneliness and misery. nobody will actually take the time and effort to understand how i think and how i feel. everyone jus thinks that i think alot. but why. no one tries to understand why. even the person i love, she'll only reprimand me. but i know, i did smth she dislikes alot. she hates me now. but mayb thats the only way to make her happy. mayb thats the way i have to be to give her the happiness. and that is to leave. no matter how much sufferings, hardships i went through for her, jus to make her happy, i never felt i was appreciated. she wants all the concern and attention that she needs. no matter who issit from, i do my best to give her all that she wants. but yes, i cant expect anything in return. but i only wan her to know that i also need attention and concern. not just her.
actually saying so much now doesnt help anymore. mayb that's my best bday gift for her. instead of the thing i bought for her, this might be the present she wants most. and that is for me to free her. she's free now. but for me, im trapped in a world with troubles, pain and even loneliness.
- falling in love with u, marks the start of me losing my life. u've entered my life so easily, changed my life and even my perceptions on certain things. now u've left my life jus as easily as you've entered. leaving me all alone. i am so gone. -
I failed. 2:56 AM
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Saturday, November 11, 2006
today's my sis bday. everyone's getting ready for the trip out but im still blogging here! =/
going out to snow city today and then have dinner at The Settlers. hmm. anyway it was through xinru's fren that i found out about The Settlers so thanks. but its like, im so afraid of cold. die liao lar.
h-u-r-t
I failed. 11:00 AM
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
1st of all, happy bday to xinru. went to meet them at The Settlers b4 i go to Indochine for awhile to meet SP and co. then went back to fetch my parents b4 i rejoined xinru and co at CCK. hmm. nth much today also. jus simple celebrations. though im not really involved, but wad's most impt is that everyone is happy can le. haha. shall slp now. tml's got attachment. cheers. nites everyone.
I failed. 2:32 AM
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Monday, November 06, 2006
so wad if i know wad i wan in life? some things are just impossible. or at least to me.
I failed. 10:59 PM
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Saturday, November 04, 2006
kinda not in mood this few days. went to bedok for soccer on thurs with stan, hanteck, shan and chris. not bad there and shan was damn on form man. my man of the match. he even scored the 1st goal to knock out gilbert's team. actually went there to check out bedok's ppl. was kinda bored everytime playing with own frens u see so since gilbert jio me, so i called them along. the malays and indians there, i must say they are quite a joy to watch. their touches, understanding, passing of the game and the communication between each other is just flawless. ok flawless seems too strong a word to use but they are good. impressed me. one thing about me, though im not really gd in soccer, but not many ppl impresses me with their skills. =X can say im kinda stingy on my comments for soccer players but seldom ppl impresses me. but now i see a bunch that does. haha.
ok tonite's pool against reading. yest just went youtube to go back to the nite of Istanbul. where pool won the champs league. feelings just came back to the nite where i sat in front of the TV with you cai and neth i think. the nv say die spirit of the scousers. they're just unbelievable. now i'd like to apply that to myself. not just in terms of soccer, but in terms of my life as well.
waiting for attachment pay to get through on mon and then i'll go buy liverpool's home jersey. looks cool to me. i shall print:(provided i can)
ALONSO
14
=)
I failed. 11:21 AM
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
its been some time since we've been out so happily. donno if u've realised it anot but actually when we're really alone, we can be so happy. an outing without any troubles left behind for us. jus purely to enjoy ourselves. this is the times we once had and the times i missed so much. so who ever said when the both of us are there, troubles start brewing? im starting to doubt that sentence. because i am always, ever so confident, that troubles start with neither of us.
time for bed. cheers!
I failed. 2:05 AM
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