Sunday, December 31, 2006
just wondering, how many more sleepless nights will i have? when will i ever be able to get a good night's slp and have a good sweet dream?
but before this, i know tonite is yet another sleepless night.
-gone to FMing-
I failed. 4:39 AM
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Saturday, December 30, 2006
days without u, unbearable pain.
I failed. 4:19 PM
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when ure alone at home, u tend to think. thats wad im doing. when ure alone at home, ure bored. thats wad i am now. when ure alone at home, u jus envy those who enjoy themselves outside. thats wad i am doing right now.
so cruelly, u left me alone. now i am alone. its time i appreciate the word "home".
I failed. 4:22 AM
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Thursday, December 28, 2006
stayed home the whole day today. not feeling well. chest pains' back. and this time its even worse than the previous time. omg. how?
27th's alan bday. after watching pool at new harbour, they suggested going to sing and we went to the partyworld at shenton. finished at around 5am and alan was drunk so me and dan took alan back to bg to slp. slp till about 8.30am, i took a cab home. feel warm and nv tot it was something serious so i went to slp. when i woke up, dammit, i was having fever. went to see a doc jus now and now im feeling better.
working lunch shift tml. alright. gotta slp now. bb.
I failed. 2:06 AM
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Thursday, December 21, 2006
received the certificate of internship at work jus now. tml's officially our last day. or at least for me moses and szekiat. attachment's come to an end and what is nxt is definitely a long rest before i start looking for a job again. will work till i serve NS.
got a B+ for my internship grade. however, the grades are not finalised yet as shirley mentioned because there are also factors the school will haf to consider before finalising our grades. but to be frank, it's better than i've expected.
there'll be a party tml in the company. will be looking to enjoy myself as much as possible. for now, it's an epi of drama and SLEEP! nitex everyone.
I failed. 10:50 PM
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006
3 working days left. life has not been smooth sailing for this month. thinking alot through the nites. having nightmares that is most probably, the worst of my life. would nv want such things to ever happen. been getting the chest pain i had recently and things arent looking gd. now that the raining season is back, i think it's sooner rather than later that i'll be on the hospital bed.
hasnt got any mood this few days. skipped dinner more than regularly and only eating a little snack when im home. got no appetite. aint got mood for anything except for stoning and slping.
has always been avoiding or taking in whatever shits i haf to take in. now its time to peel off my "coward" shell. got my "revenge" on a particular bastard. and this is for him: if this aint enough, tell me, i'll give u more. no more compromising. no more endurance. i wan no more of these shits. gonna leave whichever place that gives me countless trouble.
fri's company's xmas celebrations. there'll be a gift xchg going on. i still donno what to get. can anyone giv me some idea? jus something simple. if u do haf idea, pls do tag in your ideas. ty.
ok. gonna shower. drenched like (drop soup chicken) and im still sitting here blowing cool wind. tryng to die ar? yes i am. i suppose.
I failed. 7:13 PM
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Tuesday, December 05, 2006
went to expo on sunday. with sl, hy, ken and may. met jeanne, angeline and eileen there. they work at apple. went to become their water supplier. bought green tea for the 3 gers working so hard at the booth trying to promote apple. =x me and ken stayed at that booth for a while to chat with jeanne while hy, sl and may went to look for external hdd.
after expo, we went to vivo city to meet up with chris and we watched happy feet. was late for about 20mins? damn. missed the opening part of the show. kinda funny but storyline's kinda lame? well. thats jus wad i think lar.
then after that, it's dinner at the Food Republic b4 heading to my house for wad else but mahjong again. lol. went to ken's house to pick up his dog (charles) and he also changed his contacts. charles' so cute. lol. my sister play with him until she doesnt wanna slp! then sent them back and when i reach home it was alr 4am.
hmmm. kinda dead during work for attachment. but tried damn lots of ways to keep myself awake. went countless time to toilet jus to wash face and keep myself awake. -.-"! after work, went to the market to haf dinner with bert, kiat and moses. after dinner went home to rest awhile b4 i head to where else but BG. lol. went to pick sl up and sent her home b4 i fetch my parents. jus finished doing my stuffs. but still damn awake. but i can sense i'll be kinda dead again at work tml. -.-"! gd luck to me. may the force be with me. lol. -.-"!
ok. nites all.
I failed. 1:59 AM
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Friday, December 01, 2006
this is bad. having a bad stomach this week. bloated, indigestion, constipation.
sun, i went for soccer in the morning. before i even went out, i had to LS. omg. wad a way to start my day. den after stepping in the court for less than 3 mins, i tot i wanted to LS again. so i asked amos to sub me. while waiting for my turn to go toilet at the coffeeshop (which i donno wad the hell the guy inside was doing. he took so long!), i had this urge to vomit. so i immediately went to the other coffeeshop. while walking there, so coincidentally, i vomitted outside a clinic. wth. went back to find the guys after vomitting and then went home after that. that evening, had fever and went to see a doc.
Had to actually carry this bloated stomach of mine to CMPB for my National Service check up on Mon. went home after work on tues to rest and then wed went to celebrate ken's bday. we went to true blue to eat. whoa, i ate till i was really full. and i nearly couldnt take it as well. i skipped the cake and then ken say i nv eat the cake. =/ not i don wan leh. =/
went to partyworld AGAIN. -.-"! reached home at about 2am+.
today at work, was again feeling kinda unwell and tired. but well, still got through it. am still feeling kinda bloated now. terrible feeling to be suffering indigestion and constipation. my god. makes me feel like skipping all my meals. =/
alright. i gotta slp. nite.
I failed. 2:12 AM
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