Monday, November 13, 2006
yet another dream of mine come true. can anyone tell me if u have the same experience as me? i keep having dreams that happen at a later part of my life. and one by one, its coming true. i dreamt that i died when i was in a shopping centre shopping with my wife and a kid. well if that's true, at least i know i'll die after some time.
pls put an end to my loneliness and misery. nobody will actually take the time and effort to understand how i think and how i feel. everyone jus thinks that i think alot. but why. no one tries to understand why. even the person i love, she'll only reprimand me. but i know, i did smth she dislikes alot. she hates me now. but mayb thats the only way to make her happy. mayb thats the way i have to be to give her the happiness. and that is to leave. no matter how much sufferings, hardships i went through for her, jus to make her happy, i never felt i was appreciated. she wants all the concern and attention that she needs. no matter who issit from, i do my best to give her all that she wants. but yes, i cant expect anything in return. but i only wan her to know that i also need attention and concern. not just her.
actually saying so much now doesnt help anymore. mayb that's my best bday gift for her. instead of the thing i bought for her, this might be the present she wants most. and that is for me to free her. she's free now. but for me, im trapped in a world with troubles, pain and even loneliness.
- falling in love with u, marks the start of me losing my life. u've entered my life so easily, changed my life and even my perceptions on certain things. now u've left my life jus as easily as you've entered. leaving me all alone. i am so gone. -
I failed. 2:56 AM
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